Me and Why I wrote this:

I was born and raised in Baton Rouge, Louisiana.  I was educated in all Catholic Schools, My elementary schools were St. Pius X from the first thru fourth grade and St. Gerard Majella from fifth thru sixth grade.  I attended and Graduated from Redemptorist Senior High School in 1984.  I also attended LSU for a short time after High School, then decided to return to work in the Family Glass Business. 

My Mom and Dad were both from hard working, but far from well off families.  About the time I was born my parents decided to venture into business for themselves.  They started a full service glass business.  My parents and I made a descent living with this business, I say "I" because I worked with them from the time I was big enough to pick up a broom!  And later when I married Tammy we both worked in the glass business helping each other and my parents. 

In 1998 my Dad developed Lung cancer and ultimately pass away in 1999.  When my Dad developed Cancer, my Mom retired to be with him, Also at that time I acquired full ownership of the business.  I continued to work hard and grow the business for the next nine years with the help of Tammy.  However by the end of 2007 we found ourselves with more work than we could handle and not enough qualified employees, and none to be found, or afforded!  Our business became very stressful, and we were not happy...  So we decided to find better investments and shut down the glass business.  Today we own a few commercial and residential investment properties for income, and I also continue to do a little glass work for those who contact us. 

Tammy and I have also been blessed with two wonderful children, a beautiful young lady born in 1996 and a handsome young man born in 1997...

Now that I have that out of the way...

Why am I writing this letter which appears to be turning into a Book?
Now and for most of my life I would have thoughts, usually at night while my mind was relaxed, and I would say to myself, "wow that was a deep thought", then the next day or so I would forget about it... my thoughts would go away!  So, I decided to begin documenting my thoughts.  As I wrote, one thing led to another and my thoughts kept evolving and expanding.  I don’t know if I will ever be finished with this endeavor.  It seems as though this has turned into an unfinished, possibly life long, work in progress.

This endeavor may be totally wrong...  However, I hope some of it is good and can have a positive influence on someone.

I have always been a bit obsessive with my thoughts, so I had to learn, and practice self control while working on this.  Sometimes I will think about things and not want to stop; Not a good practice in general... But, helpful in this endeavor.

I've never been a studious person;  I never cared much for school.  I liked the people but not the structured nature of school.  I don’t really like anything that is too structured.  I guess that is why I didn’t go to LSU very long!  On the Bright side... At least my mind is not cluttered with false teachings, from misguided professors!  Which may also helps me in this endeavor.  I have also recently learned that great structure can lead to great achievement.

A little side note:
I often wonder why school teaches people to be good employees for others, but not necessarily how to succeed on their own?

I've always been an honest person.
I am always trying to do the right thing and speaking the Truth.

This trait or fault,  gets me in trouble sometimes; Many times with my wife!  I.E. When she catches me looking at another women and I say something stupid like, “What...She was pretty”...  Honestly I think women are like Flowers, Women are beautiful creatures!  And Women can perform miracles with our love, always treat women with kindness and respect, none of us would be here without them!

The problem I've noticed in society is that most people, Women and Men, "Can't handle the Truth!" I am talking about the Truth most people were educated not to question. 

This endeavor/writing has evolved into, or proved to be my seeking of the Truth, but not necessarily the Taught Truth.  Keep this in mind when you start thinking... This is crazy!

I have to admit I am a bit insecure about this writing... I suppose my insecurities stem from having never studied literature, philosophy, theology or anything else contained in this endeavor.

I've read over this several times, making little changes each time, although not finished, I felt it was at least fair.

I hope you enjoy it, and feel free to help me out.  Let me know if I am missing something.

If I get good feedback that's great, if it all gets shot down that’s cool too. If you want to challenge something I've written, please do;  I have an open mind.

In the end this may not be my search for the Truth, But maybe just another example of mans search for the truth. 

The greatest reward for my work on this so far is:

A better understanding of God!  I discovered that I have "Christian Pantheist" views on life and God.  Pantheism is what I believe to be the original belief in "One True God", I believe Pantheism is what Jesus was teaching;  God is everything and everything is God.
Jesus is the most well known teacher of pantheism; This is the Truth in my eyes!  I will elaborate on this later in my writing.

CONCERNING CHRISTIAN PANTHIESM:

The crucifixion of Jesus was an actual fact, but it had also a spiritual signification; and it is to this spiritual meaning, and not to the physical fact, that the whole of the mystical writings of the Christians refer.

The fundamental truth embodied in the crucifixion is Pantheism. God is in all creatures; and the stage of purification by fire, through which all being is now passing, is the crucifixion of God. Jesus, as the most perfect of initiates, is selected by the Christian mystics as the representative of God. He is for them, as Buddha for the Buddhist mystics, God manifest in the flesh. In his crucifixion, therefore, is the symbol and type of the continual crucifixion of God in his suffering creatures, which crucifixion is the means and cause of their purification, and thus of their redemption. "These," says God, "are the wounds wherewith I was wounded in the house of My friends."  Which means, "I am wounded in the body or person of all creatures who are Mine--who are sealed unto Me." For "the house of my friends" is nothing more than the mystical phrase for the temple of the body of others. "Enter thou into my house, O Lord!" cries the holy soul who desires to be visited while in the body by the Divine Presence. And the Man-God, showing His five mystical wounds to the Angels, thus declares, "These are the wounds of My crucifixion wherewith I am wounded continually in the persons of those who are Mine. For I and My brethren are one, as God is One in Me."

Feel free to challenge this writing.

If you say to yourself, "I don't believe this".

Then give me an alternative view. 
Don't just give criticism, with no alternative!

If I find your view to be "A Better Truth", I will incorporate it and give the credit to you.

Thanks for reading this far!

Anyway here it goes…